the Moment Before

 Maybe,

some of us might desire not to keep remembering

or reminiscing the old memories.

in contrary, i do.
 i am one of the kind who 

cherished memories and moments

so much.

whether good or bad,

i'll always remember all.

because it reminds me of who i am before.

missing my school days.

all of my friends.

sometimes i wish that i could travel back

to the moment before.

 yeah i know, it is impossible.

we also barely keep in contact.

some of them, nada.

some of them just...gone.

wishing that i can meet them,

having long chitchat like before.

but it would be difficult

because all of us are heading toward different paths now.

Port Dickson, 2007.

 end.

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Spiritual Tonic

 The pleasures of the worldly life are trivial. 

The life hereafter is best for the pious ones.

Love Letter from God

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Overloaded Sweetness

 Praise to Allah,

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah

to be frank, i don't really feel nervous

or fret too much

few hours before the result came out.

i even have time laughing while watching

Running Man. 

because i have set deep in my mind,

whatever come out, i will accept it whole-heartedly. 

i know my own strengths and weaknesses.

overloaded sweetness.

kini tidurku tersenyum

Thank you Allah.

end.

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Selamat Kembali.

menghabiskan sisa-sisa cuti yang tinggal

dengan rasa yang tak tahu nak describe macam mana.

nak kata happy, tak jugak.

nak kata sedih pun tak jugak.

pokok pangkalnya, takda perasaan.

dalam kiraan beberapa hari lagi,

akan kembali aku ke dunia kesibukan.

utmost busy-ness yang aku ceritakan sebelum.

baru selesai flick thru schedule untuk semester baru,

macam gigi yang rongak kalau nak digambarkan.

suka tak suka tetap kena suka.

dalam otak dok merangka apa yang boleh dibuat

untuk menghabiskan sisa cuti ini,

berharap dengan cara ini masa akan kurang pantas berjalan.

kalau dibiar kosongan, cepat pulak masa berlalu nanti.

sudah tentu aku tak mahu itu berlaku.

cadang nak merayau pergi shopping mall

sorang-soranglah sebab takda peneman

tapi takut kena culik pulak,

kan banyak kes culik sekarang.

jelir lidah kat diri sendiri sebab perasan.

jadi sekarang dok mempersiapkan 

mental dan fizikal demi untuk kembali 

ke alam persekolahan.

rutin senang lenang kena tolak hujung meja dulu

rutin kesibukan bawak ke tengah.

cuma berharap semester mendatang ini

berbaik-baik dengan aku

walaupun tiap-tiap semester akan diuji dengan

pelbagai cabaran.

kerana itu lumrah, aku dah terbiasa.

end.

 

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Memoir

London, 2005

memory isn't something that can be erased that easy.

just reminiscing. 

 end.

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