mere celotehan.

seems like yesterday i posted my last entry

but i have been more than a week

without a therapy.

yes.

i regard writing as my own personal therapy.

my own personal pain killer

my own personal tranquilizer.

i mean, 

this style of writing. 

its been a long journey

before i came here.

tones of works

to be done

sooner or later.

been through lots of nerve-wrecking moments

pain and distraction.

been spending lots of time of so many things

that i neglected my own self. 

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kebarangkalian itu semakin hilang

kalau dulu nampak jelas

sekarang macam dah pudar

sedikit demi sedikit.

nak saja aku jerit

tapi jeritan itu hanya sampai 

setakat kerongkong.

yang tak terluah

di hujung bibir.

dengan cara apa lagi aku tak pasti

belum pasti.

sebab aku hanya mampu rancang

itu ini.

yang menentukan hanya Dia.

hanya aku harap

lautan tidak selalu bergelora

untuk aku terus berlayar.

 

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Changing for good.

"every sinners have a future

and every faithfuls have a history"

****

changing for good is good.

the fact that changing is hard already known by 

every human being.

it is difficult tho.

but everything require a start

even it is initiated by force.

 still, it is a start.

fake it, till you make it.

how can people say changing is not easy
when they can easily change their heart huh.
little bit of irony happened here.

when you found some irritating traits in your blood
that annoyed people,
 you need to change.
really.
seriously.

 "accept people the way they are"
yeah, you might say that
but lets comprise each other
they accept yours,
so you also should try to change.


changing for good isn't a crime people
it leads to even better life in fact.

just imagine, 
how harmonious it can be
when people are tolerating with each other.
can already smell the scent of peacefulness.
indeed.

 

P/s: still in the process of transforming
       of becoming a better human being.
 

auch_down