mere celotehan.

seems like yesterday i posted my last entry

but i have been more than a week

without a therapy.

yes.

i regard writing as my own personal therapy.

my own personal pain killer

my own personal tranquilizer.

i mean, 

this style of writing. 

its been a long journey

before i came here.

tones of works

to be done

sooner or later.

been through lots of nerve-wrecking moments

pain and distraction.

been spending lots of time of so many things

that i neglected my own self. 

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kebarangkalian itu semakin hilang

kalau dulu nampak jelas

sekarang macam dah pudar

sedikit demi sedikit.

nak saja aku jerit

tapi jeritan itu hanya sampai 

setakat kerongkong.

yang tak terluah

di hujung bibir.

dengan cara apa lagi aku tak pasti

belum pasti.

sebab aku hanya mampu rancang

itu ini.

yang menentukan hanya Dia.

hanya aku harap

lautan tidak selalu bergelora

untuk aku terus berlayar.

 

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