Bersembunyi.

kalau dikira-kira 

dah hampir dua minggu aku senyap.

"menyembunyi diri"

no absolute reason.

kalau ada pun,

rasa macam nak buat-buat takda.

ini pun punyalah terpaksa.

kalau tak, memang tak kuasa.

macam mana nak describe pun aku tak pasti.

yang aku pasti perasaan itu,

"the feeling"

tak macam dulu.

susah lah.

sekarang aku sedang "endure"

selagi mampu bertahan, 

selagi itu aku akan terus berdiri.

sendiri.

dengan bantuan Nya. 

aku dah lemas bermain dengan jiwa

yang tak pernah faham

ataupun sengaja buat-buat tak faham.

mari bermain dengan permainan aku pulak.

ignoring, that's my game.

let see who's the winner.

cuma satu aje yang aku nak pinta,

Tuhan jangan jauh.

tolong.

Hamba perlukan Mu.

sampai akhir hayat.

 

p/s: terharu bila kata2 jadi inspirasi buat orang lain.

      terima kasih.

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Challenges Ahead.

"The optimist sees the rose and not its thorns.

The pessimist stares at the thorns,

oblivious to the rose"

~ Khalil Gibran

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 semester before has gone.

while another semester has come. 

just like seasons.

other season gone will be replaced by another season.

that is how i portrayed my uni life

since the first day step into it.

every semester for me,

is a challenge.

every semester for me,

requires strength.

every semester for me, 

teaches new experience.

living as a uni student did teaches me

lots of things.

knowledge

friendship

survivor

betrayal

heartache

 tears

bittersweet success

it was hardship, at first.
 yet, it becomes normal.

normalized,

neutralized,

by the situation, i am.

 take it from the bright side.

use optimistic and positive's eyes

to see things. 

well, life ain't monochrome people.

black and white.

life is rainbow.

colourful. 

don't ask others what is the meaning of life,

you define it.

"Credo Ergo Possum"

I believe I can.

P/s: always challenge,

       never force. 

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Read more.

 these days, 

i always stick to English sources of reading.

to improve my English, of course.

and i rarely read Malay novel.

i became less enthusiast in reading those Malay novel.

sorry if i might sound rude but,

most of Malay novel nowadays are typical.

and because of that typicality i became less interested.

sue me.

try and flick thru Malay novel in the bookstores.

just read their synopsis and you can guess the ending already.

plus it always on the theme of love.

illogical and unrealistic sometimes.

yet it does not mean i reject in total.

i always stick to Hlovate's novel.

Hlovate's novel is always inspiring.

and,

recently, i bought another one

of different author.

the novel titled

"Velvet di Durham"

this novel is fascinating, too.

just like the Hlovate one.

very inspiring.

and it sometimes remind me of UK

because the setting revolves around

Cardiff, Manchester, London and Durham.

 for English novel, 

i recently read 

"Ugly" by Constance Briscoe.

Horrific yet inspiring.

actually, this is how i spent 

the remaining holidays.

next week, new semester will kick off.

so gonna enjoy to the fullest

before i return to my hectic life.

read more, we should.

a good writer actually read more than write.

 that is how they improve. 

right?

don't just nod and utter yes.

start from now on. 

let us.

p/s: gonna miss this serene feeling..



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Clarity

 i don't like doing this.

but i think i should.

to clarify.

there's an absolute reason for me doing so.

because I love my Creator.

"aku sayang Tuhan."

that's why i did so.

that's the reason.

yakin, 

adanya pertemuan pasti dengan Nya

aku tak mahu kembali derhaka

aku mahu kembali sebagai ahli Syurga.

sebab Allah,

namaMu teratas.

p/s: jangan ada benci.

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