Happy Anniversary!

 how could??

how could i ever forget this important date!

see, this is the prove of how forgetful i am these days..

i should slap myself

but of course i won't.. kekeke

okay, its my 2nd anniversary

please don't misunderstood.

its the BLOG.

it has been officially operated for two years now.

i am happy that i still survived in this blog writing.

as i flicked thru my previous, i can see the growth.

i am improving now.

i am leading a mature life now.

special gratitude for being there

whenever i am sad or happy

whenever i am glad or disappointed.

i promise that i will maintain and keep writing.

HAPPY 2nd ANNIVERSARY DEAR BLOG!!!

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Dream House..

okay, firstly regard this as therapy

instead on mere rambling and ranting.

because i had enough suffering inside.

this is what i want my house to be.

let the pictures speak...

shoot!!

 i always dream of white house.

not that White House, but a white house.

 this captivating garden is a must.

i just love this modern style of interior

simplicity is my second name.. kidding

i love simple kind of interior.

S for Superb..

before this entry become run-off 

of my dreams lets just get a grip.

basically this is what i want my house to look like

So, does anyone would like to supply me money??

and it is just a kidding one more time..

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Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I–
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

~~~~~

why Robert Frost's Road Not Taken?

because  i'm in this kind of situation right now.

i have taken a wrong road in my life, probably.

to regret and to be sad is just too late

because i have taken the path.

i should have written this ages ago

but i kept postponing.

i think i need a hiatus for a while

i want to hide from this kind of world 

for a moment.

i need to mend myself.

everything is frustrating.

i don't even know whether its all my faults 

or other people faults.

i never had such big humiliation in my life.

people are just too cruel and unfair, 

but it in not right to jeopardize other people life

just because you want to satisfy your selfishness

while typing this, i am in stable emotion.

just saying this, since people might say 

i could have gone mad or crazy.

maybe it just me who think too much.

perhaps.

but it is my right to take care of my life.

 i need changes.

i won't let people mess with my life, no more.

people, people, people

these are the words that i've tired to meddling off.

right now i feel that i have lost my self-confidence

and i could feel hatred in myself.

i am tired of everything

i just want to be solitary

and i need solidarity.

maybe its me

who have commit mistakes before.

and this is the punishment.

it it true, then it really served me right.

okay, give me a break.

i want to heal the pain

in my left chest.

but i guess the scar will remain

for eternity...

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Who Says

I wouldn't wanna be anybody else.
You made me insecure
Told me I wasn’t good enough
But who are you to judge
When you’re a diamond in the rough
I’m sure you got some things
You’d like to change about yourself
But when it comes to me
I wouldn’t want to be anybody else

 

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

 

Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful
Who says

It’s such a funny thing
How nothing’s funny when it’s you
You tell ‘em what you mean
But they keep whiting out the truth
It’s like a work of art
That never gets to see the light
Keep you beneath the stars
Won’t let you touch the sky

Who says
Who says you’re not start potential
Who says you’re not presidential
Who says you can’t be in movies
Listen to me, listen to me
Who says you don’t pass the test
Who says you can’t be the best
Who said, who said
Won’t you tell me who said that

******

now its me really talking (typing to be exact),

actually this is a lyric

from song "Who Says"

by Selena Gomez.

i am not a fan of Selena Gomez, not at all.

yeah, sue me.

 but i find this song rather inspiring.

to believe in yourself,

and say "Back off all the haters" of yours.

yeah, everybody should believe in themselves.

stand up for yourself, don't let people down-graded you.

just lets start believe in ourselves

from now onward..

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i already forgot what this post was supposed to be about

i was supposed to upload Miss Forgetful picture.

see how forgetful i am these days

yeah, i am not joking and not making any jokes at all.

i realized that i tend to forget nowadays.

this is a huge problem.

i usually have sharp-memory.

give me numbers and dates

that is my weakest point.

actually i did not really mind at all.

but when you speak about "dates" 

Err..okay, straight to the point, birthday dates, 

it is all about taking care of peoples' heart. 

what do you feel when someone important forgot your birthday?

upset.

that was my point being.

i tend to forget this lately.

yesterday was my schoolmate's birthday,

i NEARLY forgot about it.

fortunately, i did wished through mobile phone. 

relieved....

i think it is better for me to eat raisins a lot.

Memory! Brain! please come back.

forgetfulness! go away..

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Terima Kasih Segalanya..

I

belum pernah terdetik dek akal

 menjejaki tempat yang sebegini rupa

yang luarannya indah bagai syurga

yang menjadi impiannya setiap manusia

hebatnya permainan mereka

memperdaya manusia 

dengan agenda yang pelbagai rupa

sehingga buta pandangan mata

pandainya mereka mencatur suasana

 berlumba lumba mereka tertawa

jika enggan menerima bermakna

gelap gelita segala-gala

semuanya tidak lagi bermakna

bukan kerana mampu itu tiada

tetapi keberanian sedikit cuma

maka menarilah di balik bayangan mereka

II

namun aku berterima kasih juga

pada mereka mereka semua

kerana di ruangan inilah

aku mengenal erti dunia

tidak pernah lagi aku sebegini

sebelum dunia ini aku jejaki

di tempat ini aku pelajari

pelbagai rasa yang berbekas di hati

disini aku semakin mengerti

indahnya perkataan benci

manisnya rasa dikhianati

enaknya rasa iri hati

disini juga aku melalui

sakitnya pengorbanan tak terperi

hanya kerana demi 

mencapai sebuah hadiah yang balutannya duniawi

segera juga aku fahamkan

maknanya kawan

dan juga kebahagiaan

yang bersulamkan kejujuran

walaupun terselit rasa terpaksa

yang wujud pada mulanya

hati gagahkan menerima takdir-Nya

dan terima kasih untuk segala-galanya

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